About Me

I always struggle with bio type pages because it’s hard to decide what is important. I mean, as a general rule, I’m just me. No labels, no descriptors, just me in my world. And that’s simple. I’m me. But, as humans it’s our nature to label, define, and try to understand. So, I’ll do my best to do that also.

I was born in northeast Wisconsin, which has influenced my life in so many ways. My parents had me and my brother in their early 20’s, which is nice because my parents aren’t very old. My given name is Jackie, and I do respond to it, especially at family and professional settings. However, in my personal life I feel more comfortable with Jax or Jaxson. The difference is typically whether someone is trying to get my attention (including myself).

I’ve always been more masculine, interested in g.i. joe and lego rather than dolls, sports instead of make-up. However, I don’t recall having this desire to be a boy, or that I was a boy, just that I wasn’t a girl. As I’ve grown into an adult I find myself most comfortable with labels like butch, gender neutral, or gender queer. I don’t feel like a man or woman, but…me! Gender is a fluid concept, and how a person feels at any moment should not be forced or restricted to one set of beliefs. We all have our masculine and feminine sides, and should feel free to experience both.

I’ve been lucky to find my soul mate early in life. I met my wife during my freshman year of college. It didn’t work out then, but our bond never broke, and a year and a half later we were back together, and for good this time. We were married in March of 2004, thanks to Canada allowing gay marriages, after 4 1/2 years together. There are bumpy spots in the road, of course, but overall I think we’re stable and happy with our relationship. We have two cats, one of which I’ve had for around 15 years, and the youngster who’s almost 5. We’ve also outlived an amazing dog who we put down for serious seizures, and a cat who just up and died one day. That’s never fun, but we’ve been blessed by all of our animals presence.

As far as my free time and interests, they are varied. I’m currently in my third year at UT-Austin, and plan to graduate with an MS this spring, focusing on experimental plasma physics. It sounds hard, but just like anything else, if you like it you put the work in. This is the activity that takes most of my time, but certainly not my greatest interest.

I try to find time to play my drums, which I’ve played since my teen years. Unfortunatley I had to take about 8 years off while I did my military and college thing, so I’m not so good anymore. But, I know that one day I will be, and look forward to the day when I can be a contributing member of a kickass band. For now, they are just fun and a stress relief. It can also be a great meditative exercise. Even when I’m not playing, music is a very important part of my life. I connect strongly to certain artists of varying genres, and use that connection to influence my own mood and mindset.

And finally, the big theme of my life is self improvement. For the past 4 years now I’ve been a part of the online Jedi Realist movement, which seeks to use the philosophy of the Star Wars Jedi as a way to improve their life. However, while I’m involved in the community, my resources are very real life. The most influential authors I’ve read include (in order of exposure) Dan Millman, Neale Donald Walsch, and Esther and Jerry Hicks. These authors have shared their own understanding of truth, and through them I’m learning to find my own truth. I feel I have a pretty good grasp on things, as you can read in my blog entries, but there are definately details I am working out.

There are plenty of details I’ve left out, but I’ll leave them for another day. If you end up bored, however, feel free to check out my other homes on the web. I have a myspace page, a photobucket, and of course my original blog which is imported here with the exception of the haloscan comments.
In case you didn’t notice, I’m a pretty open book, so feel free to comment or email. I love discussing things with people.

Thank you for reading, I hope you enjoy.

16 Responses to “About Me”

  1. And Says:

    Thank you for sharing yourself. It is genuine. A quality I both admire and respect. I am made richer through knowing you.

  2. hakansuer Says:

    Nice blog. thanks for sharing your self in such an open way.

  3. Gypsy Jack Says:

    I stumbled upon your site…. I enjoyed reading your blog and your bio… shit happens in life and the strong one’s rise above… Most of us are looking for OUR spiritual balance these days… keep up the look and good things do come to good people…


  4. Julianna Says:

    Why am I the first person to ‘like’ this page? It’s a kickin’ story – way to honor your ‘who’!

  5. butchjax Says:

    lol probably because the like option has only been available on my blog this year or so. I really need to update these pages though… lol Thanks for visiting!

  6. Perianne Says:

    Congratulations on being able to marry in Canada. Marriage equality is a hot issue here in Australia and we had hoped for a breakthrough but unfortunately the pollies didn’t come through. I like the sound of being a Jedi Realist. I will have to explore that more. I have been much influenced by the same authors as you at different times. I tune into a Abe clip everyday. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself.

  7. butchjax Says:

    Thanks! Since marrying in Canada I have yet to live where our marriage is recognized however. The US is quite slow and backwards when it comes to freedoms, which is ironic.

    Feel free to ask anything you’d like about the Jedi path. I view it as a path of spirituality in action. Not everyone puts their spirituality into action, or into an action to do as much good in the world as they can. That’s ok. For those drawn to it, there’s the Jedi path which is really quite wide open but has the undercurrent of service and assisting others with a peaceful warrior mindset. Honestly, I can’t explain it in words very well, I just live it. 🙂

  8. K.M.H Says:

    I nominated you for an award! The Sisterhood of the World Bloggers Award! Go check it out and complete it if you want to! http://confessionsslp.wordpress.com/2014/10/06/the-sisterhood-of-the-world-bloggers-award/

  9. artistspromenade Says:

    What an incredibly honest bio. I enjoyed reading it immensely. I loathe doing them myself too and force myself to be as honest as I can while revealing just the basics. On any given day, the basics might change, lol. Great job.

  10. butchjax Says:

    Thanks. I haven’t updated it in ages. Maybe I will find time before returning to work.

  11. Destination Enlightenment Says:

    I’m fairly new to the blogging community. Glad I found this blog today. I look forward to reading more…

  12. butchjax Says:

    Thanks and welcome to blogging!

  13. Brenda Shorter Says:

    You seem a very interesting open person. It also seems we have a couple things in common when it comes to Gender and Air Plane Crash Dreams,very interesting for me indeed.Thanks for having this on the web to find ,now I know im not the only one…

  14. butchjax Says:

    Glad my life can be of benefit. 🙂

  15. Actually Autistic Blogs List Says:

    butchjax, do you identify as Autistic? If so, your blog is eligible for inclusion on the Actually Autistic Blogs List (regardless of official diagnosis). Please click on the “How do you want your blog listed?” link at the top of that site to customize your blog’s description on the list.
    Thank you.
    Judy (An Autism Observer)

  16. butchjax Says:

    I do. I’ll check out your list and link, as I need to do some research on the diagnosis process in the early 2000’s.

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