Today was my first day back, exactly 17 weeks after having this amazing baby. I cried a lot. We aren’t meant to leave our babies so young. However I focused on other things while driving to the train and then listened to meditations in the btrathe app to avoid crying the rest of the day. I teared up but that’s it.
I really turned the corner aftrr pumping. I had to do an hour rach time but I got a total of 4 ounces each time. That relaxed me because I got one bottle each session. It takes work with lots of massage but I expect it to get easier after s few days.
My wife did great. She got Peanut to nap in her bassinet for the first time. She had her mom and friend come over so she could make chili for dinner and get breaks to pee.
Tomorrow may be worse as Peanut’s tolerance for me leaving disappears. I hope not. I don’t know how to handle only 3 hours with her before it’s bed time. She wouldn’t go down without me tonight so I guess I will learn to go to bed earlier.
Everyone says it gets easier but slowl. Right now it sucks.