Married everywhere 

My daughter will never know a time when her parents weren’t married throughout the country. We won’t have to fear travel and having states question our family. My heart is filled with the joy expressed by the majority in this country. In celebration I stayed home a little longer and nursed my baby while watching msnbc. I heard the gay men singing the National Anthem on tv. If I listened hard I could probably hear bigots’ heads exploding.  But we finally won this stupid battle that should never have been necessary. We won. 

Melody today 

This morning we awoke to a living bumper. (if you look closely you can see that she has a small blowout going which I discovered shortly after this picture lol)

Tonight she nursed to sleep. Clearly the vaccinations are making her tired.

And she is eating in her sleep.

I love this kid so much.

20 weeks 

I remember how excited I was to reach 20 weeks pregnant. It’s different now but definitely more fun. We are blessed with a relatively easy baby. She gets fussy at times but she smiles and laughs so much. She is getting better use of her body every day. Right now she enjoys touching faces, grabbing glasses, ‘petting’ the cats, and playing with her own hair. 

This is my third week of work. It obviously got harder this week. It’s hard to work a full week right now. My wife wants me to start taking Wednesday off or at least work from home. I will ask today. That will make things easier. We also give Peanut the stuffed wolf that is embued with my energy which helps her sleep while I am away. 

Yesterday was the first time I pumped as much as she ate. This was partly due to her eating 2 ounces less and because I pumped 2.5 times instead of just twice. Last night I used the madela manual pump for the first time. It worked great for the easy to remove milk. After that I couldn’t figure it out. But at night all I need is to release pressure so I won’t bring my spectra home unless I need to. Hopefully this setup will keep us going. I received 50 ounces of donor milk last week so we are still exclusively breastfeeding. I really want to make 6 months ebf. Then we’ll slowly add solids. If we can go a year without formula I will be ecstatic. I want to say it doesn’t matter but it does to me or I wouldn’t have cried when my wife would rather use formula than donor milk. Hormones are fun. 
This Saturday we have a photo shoot thanks to Groupon. I hope Peanut is good so we get some good pictures. She’s experienced though so it should be fine. No clue what we’re going to wear though! Maybe everyone wears something Doctor Who?

We have a full house again. Sarah is here and beyond helpful. The mother-in-law is lesd helpful but she’s having a knee replacement as I write this so she’s not supposed to do much. Sarah leaves July 3 when we go off camping. The mother-in-law leaves as soon as we can trust her on the stairs. 

Praying for patience. Focusing on the baby. She’s mine at night which makes this easier. :-)

Photo catch up 

Sunday night 

Sunday nights suck. They lead to Monday mornings. And that means leaving my baby at home. 

When she is a pissy teenager I hope she reads this and knows how much I love her and hate to leave her. 

It’s a lot harder to type on a phone when teary eyed. 

Missing her

I hate having to work. I just want to be home with my kid. It would be easier if I wasn’t somehow getting farther behind monetarily at the same time. It’s frustrating and then I have to choose between spending time with her and getting things done around the house. Thankfully Sarah arrives tomorrow until the 3rd so she can help. But my mother-in-law is here starting Monday night because she’s having a knee replacement early Tuesday morning. So I get some help but have a very full house again. 

I am sick of all the crap. I am sick of crying. It doesn’t happen every day but I really miss maternity leave. 

Just playing and watching Pink  

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