The truth?

This is still very confusing, and very annoying. From what I understand, the truth behind the story is that the Canadian government is arguing that people can’t get divorced in Canada because they aren’t legally married in their home country. If the courts agreed that could dissolve our marriage, and the marriage of everyone who’s home country doesn’t recognize it. I think.

I think the bloggers should be ashamed of themselves for presenting this information in this way. And I’m glad I only let it get me angry for a short time. I learned a lot and educated a few people as well. I’ll have to watch this more carefully.

Fuck you Canadian Conservatives – Part 2: transmuting

I am a Jedi. As such, no matter what someone else does to me I refuse to allow them to turn me to darkness. Do I get angry? Yes. I have days where I get angry for no valid reason. But today, this is justified anger. The question is, what to do with it?

I could choose to lash out at people who are/t involved.  I could hit something. I could threaten those involved with violence. But none of that is beneficial.  I could hold onto the anger, refusing to let it go. But that is exhausting and also not beneficial. So this is what I did.

First, I had a ton of energy and didn’t know what to do with it. I decided to focus the energy at the people that did this gross injustice. Not to attack – that would be completely unethical. My intent was just to make my feelings known. Subconsciously at least they would know how I feel. After this I asked Andrea what she saw since I knew I wasn’t going to be shielding well. Not that I was open to attack, but that I wasn’t holding my feelings behind walls at the moment. She described me as blue flames with ‘molecules’ going all over. I thought that was pretty cool actually. Blue is still me. I wasn’t dark, just burning cold. But either way, I needed to get home and clear out my energy before it affected Carrie. Once I got home I just let it drain away to the ground. And then I laughed. I laughed because I knew that they wouldn’t win. Darkness won’t win. Hatred won’t win. The light will win, of that I have no doubt. And in the end, they look like fools. 

I asked Andrea to see how I looked then. I’m still blue flames, but the chaos is gone.  I believe this shows that the negative aspects of my feelings was gone, but the resolve remains. I don’t know what I can do at the moment, but it won’t change our goals. We’re still going to Canada. And if there are problems with immigration…well, I’m confident we’ll come out on top no matter what.  This will be fought by people with the cash and connections to fight it. I need to find a way to stay informed though.  If it weren’t for twitter I wouldn’t know yet. And Carrie still doesn’t know. I’ll figure it out. 

Fuck you Canadian Conservatives

http://unicornbooty.com/blog/2012/01/12/canadian-govt-dissolves-thousands-of-same-sex-marriages-including-dan-savages/

I had no idea how this could feel. I’m used to not being legally married in the states. I’ve never been legal here, but I always had the backup that we’re legal in Canada. When we relocate there it will be easy because we’re legally married. And now, everything has changed. In one fell swoop, bigotry and darkness and rained on us, dissolving a marriage we worked very hard to gain. 

My anger is deep, threatening to turn to rage. But I want to write while it’s still fresh, before I threaten to censor myself because this is important. People need to know that this isn’t just some piece of paper. It’s not a word that has legal meanings. It means something, deep, at our core. Married. Spouse. That means something in society. It’s a deep level of commitment that reflects the seriousness of our relationship. She’s not my girlfriend of 12+ years, she’s my wife. And the conservative, control freak bigots know this. That’s why they fight so hard to keep it from us. They know they have nothing to stand on if we have full, equal rights. That we’re human beings, just like them. Better than them, because we aren’t trying to destroy others through our hatred.  We simply want recognition of the depths of our commitment. 

Losing it, having some asshole just write off all our marriages leaves me feeling so many things. I’m angry. I’m sickened. I’m worried that relocating will now be harder.  It will still happen, I know this to be true because just a few hours ago I received a clear sign from the Force that it would. Whether it came from my higher self or guide, I don’t know. But it was clear that this was going to work out. Maybe that’s why I got this message, to keep me from completely losing it at this news.  I feel physically ill. I can’t even tell Carrie because she’s recovering from a seizure and can’t handle the news. I had no idea this could be such a big deal until now. But I never expected it to happen either. 

The darkness is fighting for its very life. These power plays will not work. I suspect it will only hasten their downfall throughout the world. If that happens, then I welcome this pain. All it does is harden my resolve. And right now, I feel like I am made of the most solid of substances. My will will not give. Thank you conservatives. You’ve now gained someone who will be fully involved in government once relocating. I would have been fairly ambivalent. Not anymore. My eyes are open. The eyes of many around the world are on you. You’ve awoken a sleeping giant. That’s never a good idea because with those eyes comes a big spotlight. And there’s nothing the dark hates more than the light.

How long before they scurry like the cowards they are?