Where am I going?

I’ve been spending an awful lot of time trying to figure out just where I’m heading, how I’ll get there, all those big questions a person asks when they aren’t exactly where they want to be.  I knew when I took my job that I didn’t want to spend the rest of my life in Houston.  Even while in Austin, I enjoyed some elements of the city but never learned to enjoy the climate.  Houston isn’t any better obviously.  And while I’ve always been quite independent, I do find myself wanting to live close enough to home that I could get there in a day’s drive.  That’s definitely not possible in Texas.  There are parts of Texas that you can’t get to in a day’s drive!  lol  So, I find myself thinking about my long term plans, especially after they laid some people off this summer and are set to layoff more in the spring and next summer.

Recently I’ve spent even more time wondering about this and have been using this chance to learn to read messages in my dreams and nature.  So far all I can figure out is that it isn’t knowable right now.  My options haven’t even solidified, so my path is wide open.  I could stay in Texas at this job, stay in Texas with a different job, move back home or somewhere I haven’t even considered yet.  And when?  That’s probably even more in the air.

I’m using this as a chance to practice (still!)  trusting my higher self to line just the right situations up for me to be where I need to be.  It makes a lot more sense than trying to force things since I don’t know where I’m going, where I want to go, and thus would probably just screw things up.  I have no interest in forcing my way through the wrong path in life.  My struggle is in being patient when I don’t know where I’m going, especially when I’m unhappy with an aspect of the current path.  I’m quite glad I’m able to see how things are happening around me to support my path, even if the situations can be frustrating or annoying.  I guess I’m learning patience whether I like it or not.  All I can do is take the advice of the Emerging Earth Angels website today and “fine tune who we are, what we will be offering, and how we will fit into our new reality and new residency on the planet.”  Basically, keep working on improving areas of weakness.

One of those areas is focus and concentration.  It sounds silly, but yesterday I got the new Star Wars Force Trainer toy from Uncle Milton.  It measures the beta brain waves and your level beta waves corresponds to a fan speed that ‘levitates’ a ping pong ball.  Either I really suck at getting into those beta waves or the ‘toy’ doesn’t work well.  I’m pretty sure it’s me.  As I’ve gotten older my ability to focus has definitely decreased.  Hopefully practicing with this will help my focus improve.