Is this a dream? I doubt it, but I’ll write down what little I remember as it’s my own way of tracking my growth.
Sometime in the middle of the night, I woke up with awareness of an interesting conversation. I was talking to at least one person about spirits and universal spirituality for lack of a better word. Yet this person wasn’t physical either, though may or may not have had a physical half somewhere (not sure if they were astral or dead). So that was weird. And as I became more aware, that fear that always comes when my awareness joins with my astral mind popped up. In time it won, as I wasn’t able to gain any real control over it. I just wasn’t as present as the last time I became aware of being astral.
My guess is that I just popped up at one of those classes Icarus talks about me teaching. I wish I could remember exactly what I was saying, but at the least it made sense to my conscious mind.
Oh, I just remembered something else. Not sure which night it was, whether it was last night or the night before. I was reading this poetry, written down. But, if I tried to read it more than once so I could remember it, the poem would change completely and become something else. Then, if I read it too slow and paused at any point it was also rewrite itself. Or perhaps I rewrote it. It was a bizarre experience. It’s as if each poem was only one thought, and if that thought changed, the poem changed.
Looks like I’m spending some time in the astral/lucid dreaming realm and becoming far more aware of it than before. I’ve been told enough that I spend a lot of time working at night, maybe now it’s becoming time for me to be aware of that work and make it conscious?
16 February 2008 at 20:51
I guess you’re not aware that astral = deluded.
16 February 2008 at 20:59
well that’s your opinion, isn’t it? I don’t see it as anything but different. It’s a different experience, that’s all. And it can be a tool. But the teaching I do isn’t really the astral either, but it’s the simplest terminology I have.
I don’t know what your issue is with the astral, but I’m going to trust my guides, and my wife’s guides on this, along with my own gut. From what I can tell, anything can be delusion, it depends on the level of awareness of the person involved. If an unaware person plays around in different levels of consciousness and existence, they will end up with a very different person that goes in with more awareness. Just like anything else in life.
16 February 2008 at 22:15
It’s called “experience” and it’s as I’ve shared with you before. The astral realm is ALL illusions but….it is filled with all sorts of ideas that cater to our emotionally insecure personalities.
What is the substance of your Identity, stripped of everything and anything that has to do with either fear or conflict?
16 February 2008 at 22:19
the fear I feel has nothing to do with anything actually present. it’s a simple reaction to being aware of being away, without planning to be, and worrying about the safety of my physical body. That’s all. It’s a simple misunderstanding between my conscious and subconscious.