Melissa - Can’t wait!

So, on Tuesday Melissa Etheridge’s new album drops, and I can’t wait!  She recently performed the cd live, which you can see over at yahoo music.  One song in particular just sticks with you, perhaps because it takes a while to pick up all your guts as they lay strewn on the floor thanks to this song.  Give it a listen and you’ll see what I mean.  It’s not just the lyrics, but the music.  Philip’s guitar is a like a knife, slicing away any pretense that this song uncovers.  I love it!  How much more truthful can a person be?  This is my goal.  I can imagine how hard it was for Melissa to face this part of her life.  Lord knows I have some instances in my past that I still can’t really face, not enough to share with other people.  But it’s necessary to face these dark times so they don’t hold any power over me.

This is what I think Melissa has done with this song, and with the whole album.  She’s found her power - and wow, what power!  I’m more impressed with her as time goes on and she just awakens more and more into who she is meant to be in this life.  This is true power - the power that lifts others up and inspires them to find their own power.

I’ve added her philosophy to my signature line on the Jedi forums, as a reminder to me.  Be strong, speak true, spread the peace.  This is what I need to do.  And as I come more into alignment, it becomes easier to follow this philosophy.

But how do I come into alignment?  I have learned a lot from the new Abraham-Hicks book, the Astonishing Power of Emotions.  They’ve made it even simpler - are you moving upstream or downstream?  If you feel a negative emotion, you are trying to move upstream.  When you feel relief at all, you have now turned downstream.  So now I can make simple checks with my mood and work on turning downstream.

You know what’s funny?  Right before I got the book, I actually experienced this, so reading it was just a reminder so I could be fully aware.  I was sitting at work, exhausted as I had just started working my full time job and was now sitting at my part time job.  So I guess this was last wednesday.  I was so exhausted, but I knew I couldn’t afford to quit any jobs because we needed the money.  But what if I were to win the lottery?  If I won the lottery, i could then give my 2 weeks notice as my part time job.  And I immediately felt relief.  The thought of being able to quit a job without being concerned about money felt great!  Since then I’ve come into even greater alignment with that idea.  All I’m waiting on is for Carrie to be in further alignment with it, and we’ll see what happens.
What’s crazier is that I’m still in alignment!  I don’t think we have nearly enough money to get the type of apartment we want.  Yet, I am not concerned.  Our lease is up in a month, and it’s fine.  I’ve remained in alignment for a week and a half!  It’s amazing!

I know things are changing.  I see it all around me.  I look at Melissa and am inspired.  I turn on the Ellen Degeneres show and see the change in her, now speaking her truth openly on her tv show where she hadn’t before.  I feel it in myself, this change that has finally come. I may be insanely busy working a lot, and not getting to do all the things I want to do, but it’s ok.  I’m really ok with it all right now.  I’m adapting, and learning, and hell, it’s not even that hard to stay in alignment now that I’m focusing on it.

So, this is a bit of a tangent.  Lol  It’s just been so long since I had time to write that I had more to say than I realized.  I think I’m going to shower, then start the dishwasher, and head to bed.  Ash said she’s going to call tomorrow morning, and I’m excited about that.  She has a date with a suicide girl tomorrow.  It’s so cute!  You know the stereotype about Rock Stars dating Models?  This is like the punk/indie version of that - the punk rocker with the suicide girl model.  hahahaha  (if you don’t know what a suicide girl is, click the link.  It’s not as bad as it sounds, and some are damn hot!)

Ok, rambling.  Better get to the things I want to get done so I can maintain this awesome mood I’m in.