Consolidated Energy

For the past week and a half or so, I’ve been taking the time at night to reconsolidate my energy.  I just relax, and it flows back toward me from wherever it went.  I realized that I was wasting way too much time and energy on a few people and issues, and I was lacking because of it.  So I tacked it in two ways.  First, I tried to redirect my thoughts when they were on topics that weren’t helpful.  Then, every night I would relax and allow my energy to return to me, cutting off chords if necessary for the first few nights.

Last night, I noticed something.  For the first time, when I relaxed, I was just there.  My energy didn’t come rushing back because it hadn’t left me.  I felt like I was surrounded by it for the first time in a long time.  It was great!  I feel like I’m finally getting some control over my thoughts and focus.  I still have a long way to go, of course, but at least certain people who were poisons in my life are no longer causing problems within.  I have detached from drama and can now read it and just laugh at the foolishness of it all.  It’s quite freeing.