Struggle

Wow am I ready to just snap at anyone who annoys me at all.  This morning I read a few things on the ascension process and one recommendation was to have fun.  They also mentioned sleeping.  So, I decided since I was still sleepy I opted for meditation.  After about an hour of meditation/trance, I felt better.  I had a bit of nausea, which was odd, but I decided it was due to whatever integration I was trying to do.  Thankfully pickles are the perfect cure for that type of nausea and I felt better relatively quick.

To further aid myself through this process I made stir fry and brown rice which is easier on the sytem.  It turned out even better than before, since I decided to keep the cabbage out until the last minute or so.  I also added a little sesame oil.  Yummy!  Add to that a kickass Mercury win today and it was going pretty well.  But apparently that only lasts so long because I’m once again pissy with people.  I have my moments, but it’s hard.  It is better when I go do something, like laundry or cleaning.  And if I don’t think about anyone else, giving the opportunity for something to trigger annoyance.

This ascension stuff is hard when you don’t have the flexibility to do what you want.  I mean, I kinda do, but I still have things that have to be done.  So I do a little cleaning, a little laundry, a lot of leisure, and now I’m going to do a few physics problems so I can turn in 2 assignments by sunday night.  Once I do that I’ll be up to $350 for October 1, with 2 full weeks to get more done.  I still want to have at least $700 on October 1, though it would be outstanding to have more.  So I need to keep moving.  However, doing physics annoys me so I don’t push too hard right now.

Right now, I don’t think September 11 and this new portal can’t come soon enough.  But, I guess if I can’t learn my lessons now, it won’t matter then either.  I have to keep working on it, releasing and relaxing and letting the shift happen.  By then I’ll have the new Abraham Hicks book, The Astonishing Power of Emotions, which will help a ton.  It’s meant for people like me who have tried to apply things, but still haven’t manifested what they want.  So that will be the rest of my homework next week.  :-)  Fun homework at least!