We can, but should we?

The Jedi Academy has just entered it’s second week this term, which means students are starting to dig into their courses.  I’m teaching meditation, which means I need to actually meditate more lol.  Inari is teaching Force, but since all the courses are in the same area, I have been peeking in on the discussions.  A few people have had luck influencing the wind or weather.  Carrie’s mentioned doing this as a child, but I have no personal experience with it.  It makes me wonder though.  Weather is a very touchy thing.  A small change can create large changes somewhere else.  So, while it may not seem like a big deal to shift a little wind, or to even shift a storm, who knows what it’s doing down the road?

I guess I feel a little torn.  I want to speak up and remind people that there are unintended consequences that could be quite bad.  Just because we can do something, does that mean we should?  But I also don’t want to discourage them, as their gifts are discouraged enough as it is.  They need to learn control and restraint while strengthening their abilities.  How do we do this?  Since this first class doesn’t involve working with elements, I’m not going to worry about it right now.  However, I think it’s a discussion that needs to be had in the future.

Hopefully we can help these students get in touch with their intuition and other skills.  Then they have a chance at determining if messing with the weather has any major affects that they wouldn’t want to trigger.  I’ll  probably just keep an eye on students and see if anything major pops up.  My guess is that I’m overreacting to this.  Not that I’m reacting much anyway, I just want to make sure our students are asking themselves whether they should do something before they do it.

Still Loving Melissa

I’ve been listening to the awakening every day.  It’s just a great album.  It really feels like Melissa was totally keyed into her emotions when she recorded this.  I find myself singing at the top of my lungs, smiling, laughing, feeling inspired…it’s just outstanding.  What I find funny is how at some points it feels like a musical.  This is a good thing for those who aren’t sure.  It’s a concept album that definitely tells a story of one person, her life and what she’s learned boiled down into an hour.  It’s brilliant.

I am pretty sure I won’t have a clue what to say when I meet her.  I mean, what can you say?  But I feel like we’re all like minded people, and that will be the most important part.

I’m going to get ready for bed, as I worked 12 hours today and need to get up in the morning to give Cailin the rest of her stuff and take Carrie to the chiropractor to finish setting her shoulder.  But I’m staying up just long enough to catch Melissa on Letterman.  Granted, I’ve seen her perform this album twice now, once on yahoo and once on stripped music, but it’s still nice to hear more.  She helps me find my alignment. 

How the law of attraction changes others

So I’ve been reading the Astonishing Power of Emotions, slowly thanks to my work schedule.  One thing that I hadn’t been able to start to put into words before is starting to make sense now.  I’ll try to explain.  We humans tend to focus on others as the source of our unhappiness.  “If so and so would just do _____, I would feel better.”  Except that’s not true.  The feeling is ours, we need to be the one to feel better, not someone else.  No one can make us feel.  I understand that when it’s put that way - no one makes us feel anything.  But it’s also impossible to deny that others provide the opportunity for us to feel contrary to the way we wish.

The Law of Attraction tells us that, as soon as we are in alignment with our higher self, we get what we want.   But, what if what we want is for someone else to do something?  We can’t make them do anything - yet that is what we want.  We usually screw up by focusing on them making a change.  But, when we focus on our feelings and on reaching for better feeling thoughts, then we come into alignment and get what we want.  So, say you want someone to just leave your life.  You are sick of all the drama they bring into your life, and know it would be better for them to just be gone.   So your higher self says, “ok”.  But you focus on the other person, thus keeping them in your life.  Until that day when you just let go.  Then, almost like magick, they are gone.  You came into alignment with yourself, and your experience manifested what you wanted - the other person gone.  As long as we focus on trying to make someone else do something, it doesn’t happen.  Yet as soon as we let go and allow, they do just what we wanted all along.  Seems a bit strange.  How could this be?

Well, I have a theory (of course).  Neale Donald Walsch teaches us that we are all souls, and that our souls can’t be forced to do anything.  But, we agree to do things all the time so other souls can experience something.  This is explained in the Little Soul and the Sun part 1 and part 2.   So, the Law of Attraction says that our higher self makes what we want happen - it doesn’t say how it happens.  What if our soul is having a chat with the other soul in question, and they are coming to an agreement.  Neither person knows this is going on consciously.  But, once you come into alignment, the other person now has an awareness that they should just leave the situation.

That’s my working theory for now.  I don’t have a clue if I can learn whether it’s true or not, but I’ll certainly ask and see.  I also don’t know how to explain times when what we want doesn’t come to pass.  But that’s probably as simple as not believing or introducing other negativity or blockages - not allowing.  I’m not going to stress on it.  This is enough of an understanding for now anyway. 

come into alignment - that brings us what we want

if we want others to stop being something, higher self talks to that higher self, makes an agreement, thus people change without our forcing

It’s time

Carrie has come to understand, through meditation and conversations with her guide, that it’s time for a big change.  A cleanse at the level that she can tolerate.  What this means is, once this carton of cigarettes is gone in about a week, she starts a cleanse for 7 days.  The conditions:

1.  No caffeine (for the week)

2.  No nicotine (forever)

3.  Minimal processed sugar (for the week, but trying to make it longer)

4.  No meat (for the week, then slowly reintroducing it)

5.  No wheat (only minimal wheat after the week)

6.  No phone calls to family/friends (for the week, because talking to them doesn’t support the changes she needs to make, and also ruins her focus.  they’ll just have to survive for a week without her)
7.  No TV (or minimal tv - not as crucial) (it’s a distraction for her)

8.   No packaged juices (like vitamin water I think) (I think this is a sugar issue, and also breaking the habit of drinking things from disposable containers)
9.  Eat 6 to 7 times a day - fruits and vegetables, rice, beans (keeps the blood sugar up and kickstarts the metabolism I hope)

10.  Take vitamins, doubling up on B vitamins (she needs these anyway, especially with the simpler diet this week)

11.  Meditate

This will last for 7 days.  During this time she needs to sleep as best she can.  If she hasn’t slept for a day she has to meditate for an hour lying down and the guides will help her to sleep because it is crucial that she sleeps.  Otherwise she could have even more seizure problems.

She was told that this is her time.  We don’t know exactly what this will be like, or what will happen after.  However, they expect that it won’t be nearly as bad as she thinks.  She will notice a surge in creativity though, and probably many other things.

I’m going to do my best to do this too.  Granted, it’s easy for me to not eat meat.  I don’t drink coffee or smoke.  And I don’t need soda, so those are easy.  So, I’m going to minimize my time online.  I can’t leave it completely as I have responsibilities online, but I don’t need to waste time looking at other things.   So I’ll get offline and also spend time meditating.  I’m not sure how I’ll do the eating, since I work, but I’m sure we can find something that works.

The best part is that Carrie and I feed off each other.  So, when she’s getting her act together, I get a boost.  If her creativity surges, so does mine.  I’m very excited about this.  We’re moving forward!  It’ll be an interesting week, but this is the fastest way to get to where we’re going, so I don’t mind.  I’ll be sure to blog when I can to explain how things are going.  But I’ll still be working my ass off, so it’s not like I’ll have lots of free time. 

I wonder if this is why I had two random moments of happiness today?  Hmm…I don’t care.  They feel good!

Melissa - Can’t wait!

So, on Tuesday Melissa Etheridge’s new album drops, and I can’t wait!  She recently performed the cd live, which you can see over at yahoo music.  One song in particular just sticks with you, perhaps because it takes a while to pick up all your guts as they lay strewn on the floor thanks to this song.  Give it a listen and you’ll see what I mean.  It’s not just the lyrics, but the music.  Philip’s guitar is a like a knife, slicing away any pretense that this song uncovers.  I love it!  How much more truthful can a person be?  This is my goal.  I can imagine how hard it was for Melissa to face this part of her life.  Lord knows I have some instances in my past that I still can’t really face, not enough to share with other people.  But it’s necessary to face these dark times so they don’t hold any power over me.

This is what I think Melissa has done with this song, and with the whole album.  She’s found her power - and wow, what power!  I’m more impressed with her as time goes on and she just awakens more and more into who she is meant to be in this life.  This is true power - the power that lifts others up and inspires them to find their own power.

I’ve added her philosophy to my signature line on the Jedi forums, as a reminder to me.  Be strong, speak true, spread the peace.  This is what I need to do.  And as I come more into alignment, it becomes easier to follow this philosophy.

But how do I come into alignment?  I have learned a lot from the new Abraham-Hicks book, the Astonishing Power of Emotions.  They’ve made it even simpler - are you moving upstream or downstream?  If you feel a negative emotion, you are trying to move upstream.  When you feel relief at all, you have now turned downstream.  So now I can make simple checks with my mood and work on turning downstream.

You know what’s funny?  Right before I got the book, I actually experienced this, so reading it was just a reminder so I could be fully aware.  I was sitting at work, exhausted as I had just started working my full time job and was now sitting at my part time job.  So I guess this was last wednesday.  I was so exhausted, but I knew I couldn’t afford to quit any jobs because we needed the money.  But what if I were to win the lottery?  If I won the lottery, i could then give my 2 weeks notice as my part time job.  And I immediately felt relief.  The thought of being able to quit a job without being concerned about money felt great!  Since then I’ve come into even greater alignment with that idea.  All I’m waiting on is for Carrie to be in further alignment with it, and we’ll see what happens.
What’s crazier is that I’m still in alignment!  I don’t think we have nearly enough money to get the type of apartment we want.  Yet, I am not concerned.  Our lease is up in a month, and it’s fine.  I’ve remained in alignment for a week and a half!  It’s amazing!

I know things are changing.  I see it all around me.  I look at Melissa and am inspired.  I turn on the Ellen Degeneres show and see the change in her, now speaking her truth openly on her tv show where she hadn’t before.  I feel it in myself, this change that has finally come. I may be insanely busy working a lot, and not getting to do all the things I want to do, but it’s ok.  I’m really ok with it all right now.  I’m adapting, and learning, and hell, it’s not even that hard to stay in alignment now that I’m focusing on it.

So, this is a bit of a tangent.  Lol  It’s just been so long since I had time to write that I had more to say than I realized.  I think I’m going to shower, then start the dishwasher, and head to bed.  Ash said she’s going to call tomorrow morning, and I’m excited about that.  She has a date with a suicide girl tomorrow.  It’s so cute!  You know the stereotype about Rock Stars dating Models?  This is like the punk/indie version of that - the punk rocker with the suicide girl model.  hahahaha  (if you don’t know what a suicide girl is, click the link.  It’s not as bad as it sounds, and some are damn hot!)

Ok, rambling.  Better get to the things I want to get done so I can maintain this awesome mood I’m in. 

Tired arms

Ok, I have a new appreciation for the mortar and pestle.  I spent many hours today grinding up rock hard clay into a fine powder to ship out for some tests.  My arms and hands are very tired now.  But it made me wonder how the ancient people did it.  Or how people do it now, grinding corn and stuff to make flour.  It’s kinda crazy!  But, I’m building some interesting muscles I’m sure.  My biceps are already much more toned than before, along with my forearms.  It feels good, even though my muscles are annoyed.  lol

Thankfully, tomorrow is friday.  I need to work 9.75 hours to make 40 hours for the week, which means a 15 minute lunch and working from 8 to 5:30.  That means I don’t get home until around 6:15, but maybe that will be better since I found the best route home today.  It’s not easy to find low traffic streets in Austin, but it is possible if you’re sneaky.  lol

Oh, and a random thing.  Some guy sent me a message asking me if I wanted to join the American Legion.  I’m really hesitant because I’m really not like a lot of vets.  And I feel a bit weird since I think of the American Legion as people who fought in wars, which I didn’t do.  I think I’d rather join the Marine Corps League if I had the time.  So we’ll see.  I really don’t have the time to consider any options anyway.  Not while working over 55 hours a week.

Ok, time for a shower and bed.  Maybe I can hang out with Carrie for a little while longer before going to sleep.  But I really want sleep since I don’t drink my ginseng tea anymore unless desperate.  It threw my body into a heat condition, causing my weird cycle this month.  And since I don’t drink coffee, it’s all me.  I’ll just have to get better with energy management. 

Consolidated Energy

For the past week and a half or so, I’ve been taking the time at night to reconsolidate my energy.  I just relax, and it flows back toward me from wherever it went.  I realized that I was wasting way too much time and energy on a few people and issues, and I was lacking because of it.  So I tacked it in two ways.  First, I tried to redirect my thoughts when they were on topics that weren’t helpful.  Then, every night I would relax and allow my energy to return to me, cutting off chords if necessary for the first few nights.

Last night, I noticed something.  For the first time, when I relaxed, I was just there.  My energy didn’t come rushing back because it hadn’t left me.  I felt like I was surrounded by it for the first time in a long time.  It was great!  I feel like I’m finally getting some control over my thoughts and focus.  I still have a long way to go, of course, but at least certain people who were poisons in my life are no longer causing problems within.  I have detached from drama and can now read it and just laugh at the foolishness of it all.  It’s quite freeing.

Love

If I had to choose just one thing that most confuses me about life as a human, it’s emotion.  I’m sure I’m in good company with this confusion.  Just look at all the dysfunction in our world that can be attributed to people being unable to accept their emotions and then decide how to act.  But today I’m thinking about one situation in particular that has me puzzled.

Have you ever written a letter/email to an acquaintance and felt the strong urge to end it by saying “I love you”?  Now I’m not saying the type of love towards a spouse, but perhaps your closest friends.  This happens to me all the time with one person in particular, and I find it quite odd.  I mean, I don’t know her that well, and haven’t spent much time with her.  Yet, there it is, sitting in my head when I send her an email.  Do we have some deeper connection that I haven’t figured out yet?  That’s the only logical explanation I have for it.  But it’s still kinda weird to experience.  Until I learn to see my past lives, I don’t think I’ll know why this happens.  I guess I could add it to the list of random questions I ask psychics.  lol

Sick and wrong

I can’t believe what I just saw.  In order to get shark fins for shark fin soup, fishermen catch the sharks, cut off their fins, and throw them back overboard to drown.  What the fuck?  It’s so beyond sick that I can’t even process this right now.  How can people be so disgusting?  I mean, come on, you can’t find a use for the rest of the shark?!  You just tortured the creature and then left it for dead.  Unbelievable.

Where the hell is the empathy?  When I see stuff like this, I have no empathy for those fishermen that then end up overboard themselves.  I know that’s not the best reaction I can have, but right now I can’t reach a better conclusion.  Not until I can work through what I just witnessed.  I know it’s their life, and their choices to make, but I also know if my kid was involved in something like that I wouldn’t hide my disgust or disappointment, and I would have failed as a parent.

Jesus.  Humans are capable of some horrible things.  (I also realize that we are capable of far worse on a daily basis.  I’m not saying this is worse or better than anything else.  Just that it’s sick and I want to beat the crap out of those fishermen right now.)

Shelfari

I just joined this site called Shelfari. It’s like a virtual library where you can easily share your books with your friends and see what books you have in common. There are also groups where you can find new books to read. Here is my top 10 list (which is stuck at 8 right now lol)  I tried to get it to simply embed here, but that didn’t work.  So here’s a link!  Feel free to add me as a friend on there if you choose to sign up.  It’s pretty fun, especially to remember how much I enjoyed reading some of these books that I read 10 years ago.