A Channel

Today I spent some time chatting with Falcon, a Shaman who has recently joined us at the Jedi Academy.  We were talking about how I have yet to be able to connect to something like my guide or god or whoever so I can discuss things on a higher level.  So, she asked if she could visit and I guess feel things out.  The first time she found Carrie instead, which isn’t hard to do.  She also met the Staff Sergeant, who I didn’t think to warn about her arrival.  But that worked fine too.

Anyway, once she did connect to me she discovered my wall, which pretty much keeps everything out.  She said that at this point it’s out of control and is hindering my growth.  At some point I’ll need to either take it down myself, or have someone else take it down.  But, to know how  and when I think it’s best to discuss with Chuckma, since he knows what I can handle and what I can’t.  If I were to just lose the wall I’d probably be overwhelmed.  So, Falcon talked to Chuckma and got permission to create a channel between us.  I don’t know if I should talk about what exactly she did, so I’ll just say that we now have a tool that will maintain this channel for a few years, and by then I should be able to keep the channel open on my own.  So now I’m going to experiment and work on reaching a trance type state and work on hearing him.  At least I know this is possible, since I’ve heard other people’s voices before.

She also mentioned that I have “all the earmarks of a potential Shaman, without those barriers, and no knowledge of how to control your abilities.”  That makes me wonder what I could do without these barriers.  And what are the earmarks of a potential shaman?  Unfortunately, she was pretty tired after all that so I haven’t had the chance to ask about this.  I also wonder if I’m able to move past my fears enough to even consider training to be a Shaman.  In any case, it was interesting.