I did energy raising after Carrie finally stopped snoring. lol Didn’t have any dreams or visions while falling asleep, but this morning I did. The part I remember is being at some strange location, like a fair or festival, but quite mild. Oh, wait that came later. But I guess I’ll start with this one. While there, I met a younger butch who was being a bit strange. Aha, now I remember. There was a game where people had to find these nuts in sand. I think it was more like a state fair because of this. Well, she kept giving away the locations, which defeated the purpose. So I would try to get her to stop by literally pushing her out of the way. After a bit I hid the nuts she uncovered and tried to make it like people didn’t know where they were. I think she sat down in the corner of this shed, and after a few minutes started acting funny, perhaps like she had a small seizure or something. There were two people by her, including a doctor. My stuff was down by her, so I figured I would grab it and give her some privacy. But, they had used my coat to cover her a little, so I tried to leave it. But she changed personalities a bit and said it was ok to take it. She also thanked me for being nice to her. When was I nice to her?
I tried to figure out what was wrong, but she said she was ok. As I got up to leave, she decided to come with. She grabbed my hand, which was odd, but not affectionate, just as a sense of connection to something. At this point her appearance changed to something more familiar – blondish hair to dark hair for instance. So we walked for a bit, and she started to act silly. I just laughed because it was bizarre. She was acting like she couldn’t let go, even though I tried. So she ran into the edge of a shed and that worked. I laughed some more and we kept walking around. By this point I had decided or realized it was my friend Tess from out in the desert.
After a few minutes of walking around, two more girls (teenagers) appeared: someone I didn’t know, and Jen. I goofed around and played with the first friend, but with Jen, there was something deeper, even though I just met her. So I just touched her on the stomach and said hey. Maybe I was trying to make it known that I know or remember her, and trying to see if she knew the same thing? We find the bathrooms. I remark that the women’s room and the medical area used to be flip flopped. Anyway, we go inside a room. I walk around for a little, and then everyone’s gone except Jen who is sitting on a small couch. I sit down right next to her, and we just try to feel out that we know each other at a very deep level. So, very uncomfortably due to my coat I put my arm up and she leans onto my shoulder until we realize someone is coming back. The only words we say to each other is whether we should move or not. We decide it’s better to wait and I move over on the couch. Oh, and for the weird dream moment? Somewhere in there, a guy is in the couch, which I notice when I sit down. So I stand back up and he crawls out. lol It’s the boy from the earlier dream, which I’ll share now.
I remember being at a house or fancy cabin in the woods. There is a lake nearby, so it feels like a state park almost. I remember there being a group of teenage boys there. And it seems like either they wanted to be Jedi, or at least I knew in the dream that I was Jedi. I know Jbar was around, or perhaps that we were waiting for him to arrive. Also, I think Brandon was with this group of boys. Ah, it’s coming back now. I remember that we had been there for maybe 5 days or more, and I was once again doing dishes. I was getting fed up because no one was helping me with the cleaning. So this was toward the end of the week and there was another person or two. He asked if I could prepare something and I just went off. I said I’ve been doing stuff all week and still had tons of dishes to do. This kitchen was huge by the way, with two sinks and tons of dishes. lol I also had lessons to finish working on and some other things. They looked at me weird, and he said he’d help. He ended up writing up some lesson outline or something, which I copied onto another piece of paper. I can’t remember what it was about though. So, I can’t remember a lot of detail, but it was a dream that involved building frustration and trying to figure out how to address the situation with the people there. I think this dream was more dealing with daily frustration and other things than anything deep from my subconscious.
I’m not sure about the dream with Tess and Jen. I met Jen while in 29 Palms, a bit before Carrie was to move out there. For some reason she really pulled at me, even though she was around 6 years younger (which is huge when only 21). If Carrie hadn’t been moving out there, I’m sure I would have been stupid and gotten involved with her, which would have been doomed to fail. In any case, she’s on the short list of people that I haven’t figured out the connection with, and it was very strong. And Tess was just a damn cool young friend. I’ve lost touch with both of them, which sucks. They made the desert fun, and I got to be the wise older friend while hanging out with people who did foolish things. More fun than it sounds perhaps. lol
I really didn’t want to wake up from this one…
