A gift

This morning, I sat down at my computer like normal.  Then, out of the corner of my eye I noticed something unexpected.  There was a $20 bill semifolded and partially under my camera.  This was definitely not there last night, as Carrie picked up the camera last night.

I laughed, and said thank you.  I did have to wonder if maybe it would happen every morning, like manna to the Isrealites, but then I wondered if that was greedy.  So, I decided to stop thinking about it.  lol  This is the second time this has happened in this way.  The first time I ‘found’ four quarters stacked inside a washing machine while I was doing laundry.  I think this tends to happen when I need a reminder that I don’t have to understand where money will come from, the universe can provide without any physical earth source at all.

In other news, last night Carrie said I actually didn’t sleep at all.  I would insist on her holding me and rubbing my head.  What’s funny is I have no recollection of this at all.  This morning when I did wake up a bit she tried to do it then and I pushed her away because it’s hard to sleep when she does that when I’m already awake.  We don’t know what was going on with me.

The Gunny did say that we came back from the gathering a little dirty.  We’re good now and the house is clean, but Kendra and Chuckma had some work to do.  He said “The Indian is here”, but Carrie couldn’t see him.  Apparently most people can’t.  But, it’s interesting to have an independent verification of his existence.

What also is odd is that Carrie and I are both having wierd dreams, all of which are darker in nature.  Granted, that statement is relative to what our dreams are normally like, so it means different things to each of us.  I’m also finding it hard to remember much of my dreams.  What’s wierd is I feel like there is a change inside me, but one I can’t express.  I don’t know if it’s positive or negative.  It makes conversation awkward when people ask about the gathering because I don’t know what to say.  Maybe it’ll make sense in the future.  But, I have noticed an increase in creativity and poetry again so it’s not all bad. 

I guess time will have to tell with all of this.