To get back to things we did at the gathering, let’s talk sensing.
We started with sensing our partner’s energy by bringing our hands down to their hands until we felt sponginess. I had a hard time getting that spongy feeling, though I could feel heat even a foot and a half away since I was working with Angelus. Then we made a circle facing outward. A person in the center would walk quietly and you were to raise your hand when you felt them moving toward you.
The first time I didn’t notice anything , mostly because I wasn’t ready yet. When the next time came around I started to feel it, but I wasn’t sure. Then Tir switched out with Andrea and I could sense her better. However I still wasn’t completely sure until she touched me.
The next exercise was to close our eyes, then everyone moved around for a few seconds and then you had to find someone. What was funny is, when people moved I could sense quite a few, and I even started to get some visual with it, or hot spots. Then they stopped moving and I had nothing at all. I mean, absolutely nothing, not even when I was standing right next to Angelus.
I talked to Carrie later and she said she knew I wouldn’t be able to do it. She said that I’m too connected to everything, especially trees and bugs and such. I tend to view all life as relatively equal to the point where I avoid killing mosquitos. I don’t know how to distinguish between different energies, so they all feel the same. It’s like being placed in a blinding light - you can’t distinguish anything. Unfortunately she wasn’t able to tell me this ahead of time. I did come up with the idea to disconnect from the earth first and then try to activate my third eye, but it wasn’t enough. But I didn’t get too discouraged because I could sense when people moved.
The last exercise involved each group getting a rock which was then hidden. I couldn’t get a sense for the rock and couldn’t find it at all. Basically it was like walking blind. But, I know that if I were in my house I would do a lot better. I need to practice more, but at least I have improved some and now know more specifically what to work on.
