Self lessons

I’ve been a jackass for two days.  I have no clue why, and I’m not sure how to fix it.  In essence it comes down to just letting it go, but I don’t know what I’m holding on to.  I’m probably making this too complicated.

I’ve realized that I’m at my worst when dealing with the least important things in life.  Things that maybe I add  importance to, and I then hold onto.  It’s like a little kid that holds onto a piece of paper that means nothing.  If you take it away, they throw a huge fit, as if you’re taking away their parents.  Maybe I need a ‘parent’ to take away these things that aren’t important, so I can be annoyed for a short time and then move on?

In short, I’m referring to some conflicts that came in dealing with another Jedi site that wants to interact with us.  Except that their site screams role playing to everyone who has visited.  They claim otherwise, and then say that it’s the person’s issue if they see it as role playing.   Hmm…ok, passing off responsibility is always a good sign.  They also have a wierd idea of ranks.  Basically, online master = offline knight, and so on.  To me, that makes no sense at all.  There should be no difference, or you have diluted what those titles are supposed to mean.  These are sticking points for me, that I can’t really move past.  There are others, but it’s not necessary to go into here.  I do take responsibility for my own attitude, that was not conducive to a good conversation.  Taking attitude out of the equation, and focusing on the issues so to speak, I really don’t like what they’re doing, so I won’t be dealing with them anymore.

I need to change my focus, because I have to run out and get cigarettes.  If I don’t shift my focus, I’m going to yell a lot at the cars around me.  It’s a bad habit, and doesn’t help very much.  I guess it’s time to see what I can do.