Prosperity - incoming!

What a week. I believe I mentioned a few weeks ago that Geraldine gave me a give of an oil to bring abundance into my life. I’ve put it on pretty consistently, though I forgot for a few days in there. In any case, it’s working, and in unexpected ways.

The first two things I noticed came on the same day last week. First, I went to pay my credit card, which I’ve had for 6 years. For the first time ever, they increased my credit limit by $600, which means my card wasn’t over the limit like it might have been otherwise. Granted, for the past few months I’ve made my payments on time, but they never increased it when I made payments in the past, so this is truly a suprise. Then, I looked at my car insurance statement and it was $10 less than before. I’ve paid the same amount of insurance for quite a few years, and now, magically it’s $10 a month less? Definately a pleasant suprise.

And today, I got the biggest suprise. My mom sent me a package which included comics, like I expected, but also two envelopes from Springboard, a credit counseling company I used when I was getting out of the Marine Corps to get a handle on my debt. From the outside it looked like a check, but we all know how many companies use that to get you to open the envelope and buy something. But, I opened it anyway, and there, in front of me, is a check for $72. I look further down, and don’t see anything that’s an advertisement. Neither is there any explanation, just a check. So I open the other envelope, and basically they did an audit and found I was charged for something that I wasn’t supposed to be charged for. There was a check in that envelope also, for $5. So in total, I received a suprise of $77! Amazing!

Right now, things feel like they’re moving forward again, in a relatively quick manner. I don’t know why, and I’m not going to question it. Things just feel good. Perhaps I’ll know why soon.

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I have a theory…(it could be bunnies)

(this should have posted a while ago, didn’t notice it hadn’t till now)

Sitting in class today, I had a thought out of the blue, very much related to last night’s insights.

In reality, we are not separate from everything. We only perceive it as such to experience different situations in this life. It’s the illusion that makes our life experience the way it is, for better or worse. But if we can transcend that illusion, much more is possible.

What if I were able to get my conscious mind to relax enough to forget the illusion? It seems to me that I could pick an object, a rock for instance, and connect it to my center. Once sufficiently connected, I could move my center physically, and the rock would move with it, so long as I remained connected. Thus, telekinesis in a seemingly simpler manner. This would be phase one, since it requires moving the body, though no touching.

It seems then that you could move onto the next phase. Connect the rock to the center, and then move the center without moving the physical body. I don’t know how far the center can move, but that seems to be dependent upon the individual.

I honestly can’t find a reason why this wouldn’t work. The hardest part is to overcome the disbelief our brain holds. Perhaps some deep meditation or trancework would get the mind to the point of being able to quiet it’s doubts.

If anyone gives this a try and has any success or feedback, please let me know.

(by the way, if you don’t get the subject line, you need to watch more Buffy)

Aikido Epiphany

Walks are good for thinking, and making connections on the grand scale.  The road construction, while inconvenient, isn’t all bad.

Tonight at aikido we were working on a technique against a punch.  We learned the names of the techniques, but I’ve already forgotten them.  Anyway, you simply step off the line, and with your front hand lay it on their elbow, nice and relaxed.  Then you take a step, drop the arm, and they should fall.  Sounds easy enough.  But when doing it with an experienced aikido student, it wasn’t working well, and I needed muscle.  At times it didn’t work at all.  He reminded me to just connect my hand/arm to my center.  It was so easy after that it was almost scary!  I mean, night and day, and no muscle.

What’s interesting to me is that, our arm is a part of us.  We will all agree that our arm is not separate from us.  Yet we act as if it is.  We make it do things all by itself, or maybe with a few friends (the shoulder, back).  And while this has it’s place, it’s certainly not the easiest way to go about doing things.  As soon as you link your arm to your center, it is as strong as it needs to be, yet completely relaxed.

In many the same way, this is how we interact with the universe.  We are not separate from it, yet we act as if we are.  We go about doing things on our own, or with a few friends, using a lot of muscle, and sometimes going nowhere.  But the solution is simple.  We have the infinite power of the universe at our disposal, and all we have to do is connect with it.  Connect with our center, and life becomes much easier and relaxing.

So in a sense, training in aikido is also training my larger spirituality, for as I connect with my physical center, I connect to my spiritual center.  The training is one and the same.  To unify the body and the mind is to unify the spirit.

As I finished my epiphany moment, the song that was in my head before came more fully in my awareness.  “Suddenly I see, why the hell it means so much to me.”  (KT Tunstall)

Synchronicity.

What a night!

I had missed the past week of aikido due to Carrie’s MRI and homework, so tonight I had a little catching up to do.  We learned a new technique to defend against a knifehand to the head.  Basically you just continue them on their slightly spinning journey, right to the ground.  When we switched partners I got to train with one of the female black belts.  I felt the difference immediately.  My aikido was very much improved by her aikido.  I tried to match her pace, and she could quickly correct major errors, like using muscle, or keeping my elbow up.  It was really excellent.

We also worked on the kotagaeshi technique against a wrist grab.  Once again, when I switched partners, I got a black belt, Jeremy (I think).  Since we’ve done this one quite a bit I was able to just go with it, and not think too much.  I still had to work out kinks at first, but then I just blended.  It felt really nice!  He corrected a few things, pointed out some ways to improve my technique, and for the first time I think I really felt that flow.  I’m sure in time this will be easier to attain, but it was very pleasant to taste aikido’s grace.

We also received a short lesson on the difference between aikido and karate.  In karate, you show your power.  In aikido, the power is hidden.  Everything is smooth and soft, so the person does not realize they are being attacked until the technique has already occurred.  That makes them less apt to resist the technique, making it more effective.  And in the end, hidden power is more effective.  Well, that’s my opinion based on limited experience.  I learn so many new things each week, philosophically and physically.  I really love aikido.

Feelings

Why do feelings have to be so hard to decipher?

I’ve been trying to pay better attention to my gut, and where I feel various things when dealing with situations.  When I get a feeling, I look up on Caroline Myss’s website to see what areas are involved in that chakra, because the feelings are almost always in chakras.  That tends to help, but sometimes, it’s hard to know.  Perhaps it’s because I think so much, there are multiple areas I’m dealing with at once.  Thus, I can’t tell what the feeling is really about.

For instance, the other day I was talking to a friend who was telling me something highly unbelievable.  I asked my guides to check things out.  I got a warm feeling, almost a feeling of laughter, which I took as a good sign.  But, was that because there was no danger, or because it wasn’t even really happening, or laughing at me for considering it to be true?  The implications of each are quite different, so the feeling really wasn’t very useful.

And today, I got an interesting message from a friend who just learned another friend and her have feelings for each other, though they haven’t seen each other in 8 years.  It’s long and complicated, but it has the potential for greatness or disaster.  Unfortunately, my feelings are not helpful.  I get no reaction at all.  After I messaged her back, I have a feeling, but I don’t know what it means.  Why can’t these things come with a decoder?

I know the more I pay attention, the more I’ll learn from the feelings.  But waiting is not fun, and it’s not like I can wait for every situation.  Some need to be dealt with now, with or without gut instinct.  Just another example of my impatience.  I want it to work now, on demand, and without any ambiguity.  Lol, that’s not asking much, is it?

Insight

I’m talking to my brother right now, and he had an amazing flash of insight.  He looked at my talisman and said: (fixing typos)

Yours show some fluidity between the known and unknown like the levels of deeper water and the currents in tow.

You might want to meditate on the idea of energy and motion along with the talisman.  Or other concepts which may be easier for you to grasp between emotional and spiritual , and the small things to separate and join them together.

Man, when he has flashes of greatness, he really has flashes of greatness! 

Talisman

What is the plural of talisman? I want to say talismen, but it’s talismans. Funny how we associate words. In any case, here are the pictures I took of our new talismans last night. They aren’t perfectly crisp, but it’s not the most expensive camera.
Carrie’s Talisman - The rune is Joy

My talisman - front side

My talisman - back side

 So there you go.  I like them a lot. 

Last night’s dream

Things are real fuzzy, as is normal with my dreams, but I just started to remember one small part, so I have to write it down.

I don’t know exactly where I am, but arriving is an old friend, River, who I hadn’t seen in some time.  We hug, he gives me those wierd cheek kisses that don’t touch you.  We hug again, and are talking about how great it is to see each other, followed by a real kiss on the cheek, another hug, and then I totally friendly kiss on the lips (instigated by me).  But nothing is wierd or sexual, it’s just pure joy at seeing one another again.  The next part that I remember is trying to show him my talisman that I bought yesterday.  When I pull it out of my shirt, it’s broken.  Parts are chipped, and rotated within the metal frame which I don’t think is actually physically possible.  However it is still holding together somehow.  It was quite disappointing actually.

I’m hoping to remember more of this during my shower or something, since this isn’t enough detail to learn much.  If the correlation is between River and the talisman, it could mean that if I embrace River’s path of transitioning, at least going on testosterone, that I would lose part of myself.  Though, I don’t know why that message would come through now, as I haven’t considered that in years, and never seriously.  So, as more time passes, hopefully I’ll get more out of this.

Texas Renaissance Festival 2006

Wow, what a day. First off, the renfest should be closer than a 2 1/2 hour drive! It’s a pretty drive though, so that’s not bad. Unfortunately it’s a full tank of gas to go there and back. I really need to work on teleportation!

We got to the renfest around 2:30 or 3, and met our friends at the gate. They slowly got us to the Polish area, where Carrie and I had our share of fresh Pierogie (potato and onion) and a kielbasa. I passed on the kielbasa, as it was a bit scary to me (the meat wasn’t ground fine enough for my taste), but the sourkraut was very good. It was cooked in a tomato base along with some kielbasa, so I did try it, just in small bits I guess. Overall, very yummy.

We left that area because there were some very obnoxious drunk guys yelling all the time. Unfortunately the Asian lady with the carved dragons wasn’t in the area, and we never did find out of she was there. Perhaps next year. We did, however, find the people that make the most amazing amulets. The Village Alchemist artists are from Gainesville Florida. They make mixed clay works of art, which are then turned into beautiful amulets. Last year we didn’t have the money to even consider buying one. And honestly, we didn’t have so much money either, but there were two that really spoke to Carrie, so we had to bring them home. The one she liked is prety small, with a very small quartz crystal hanging off the bottom. What’s interesting is the rune on the talisman - Joy. Time will tell what exactly it means for her, but it’s nice anyway. Then, she was walking past a section of ones without any markings on, just the clay patterns, and she said one was for me. It felt just like me, energetically wise. What’s funny is I don’t so much feel it, though I’m not feeling much in that sense today. However, Tir and Cailin verified this. It’s really pretty, and if I can get a good picture of it, I’ll post it. I now have three things that I wear, and I don’t know how that will work. However we both felt the need to wear them, so they’re important to us somehow. Carrie also bought a neat ring that has a pattern on it that actually looks like something a person would tattoo. Hard to describe though.

We caught the joust tournament today. The horses were beautiful. Once the guys were off the horses it was pretty stupid, but it’s ok. It was amusing, even if it was staged.

The thing that bothered Carrie (and I) was the number of people inappropriately dressed. This is a place with a lot of children. You should not be wearing a single layer of chainmail for clothing. We can see everything! Nor should you be wearing tiny fur bras that don’t stay put when you bend over. This is a family place, and minimal dress codes should be enforced. Keep that stuff in your own home, or in an adults only area.

And finally, kids in costumes are simply adorable.

p.s. The 5pm to 5am guard came with us. Perhaps he was bored with staying in the house?