Astral Meditation

Last night and today I have done a little work in my astral safe space.  I’ve decided to do this until Ellen returns.  What I’m doing is pretty simple.  First I relax and try to get into a relatively peaceful state.  Then I visualize myself in my safe space, in seiza.  Once I solidify the visualization as much as I can, I close my astral eyes.  I then continue to meditate, while sensing whatever I can around me.

Last night I didn’t do much as I was way too tired.  This afternoon, however, I was awake and did much better.  At one point I could sense something to my left, but it felt different than Ellen.  After some time I thought there may have been something to my right, but that sense was relatively faint.  I also felt something in front of me and to the left, which may have been the same thing that was on my left.  I didn’t open my eyes, as I knew I was thinking too much to get any actual information, but it was enough to just sit and feel for now.  At times I started drifting deeper into the meditation, but would be jerked out pretty quick.  One time was due to the sound of two footsteps that couldn’t have been in the physical world.  Not sure what that was from, but who knows.

I look at this all as an exercise.  I don’t care if I don’t get any flashes of insight or anything at all, as the practice itself is useful.  I’m actually meditating and finding calm.  I think it may be because the process unites me more strongly with my inner self, as I’m meditating on two different levels.  I get more bang for the buck, it seems.  Besides, I’m getting too stressed out with school and work right now, so I need this more often.

Trust

I’ve read a few posts this morning by an individual having a personal crisis of faith, so to speak.  The one that I’m still trying to find the words for involves trusting the Force.  For those of you unfamiliar with the concept, insert trusting God insead.

What he seems to be referring to is the complete surrender discussed in various religions.  It’s not about what you want, but what your god wants.  Except that works on a fundamental flaw, which is seeing yourself as separate or less than god, and I don’t believe that to be true.  Yes, I’m still working on incorporating that fully into my life, but I still believe it.

This also goes back to the concept that god or the force has a will.  It’s simply not true.  We are here, experiencing as an aspect of god/the force, with complete freedom.  The only restrictions are what we place on ourself.  Why bother having a will, if you’re god, just to let others go against it all the time?  Seems pretty counterintuitive to me.  God’s will for us is our will for us.  There is no right or wrong.  However, I think we get confused when we look at our shallow desires and say, that can’t be god’s will.  I believe that our true will is not our shallow human desires, but that which we find deeper, in our souls.  Our souls are our direct connection to god or the force, and have the advantage of seeing from that larger viewpoint.  So while other’s say, trust god, I say, trust your soul.  They are one and the same, except in one view you are looking outside, and the other inside.  Perhaps you’ll get some information by looking outside, but it’s rarely going to be suited for your unique life and situation.  However, your soul knows what your life is about this time around, and will guide you accordingly.

This is how I view the “trust the force/god” concept.  Trust that, if you ask a question, you will receive an answer.  That answer can come in any manner, so keep yourself open.  But it doesn’t reflect the will of god.  I mean, I give answers all the time that aren’t what I think is the right decision, but answers the question.  Which also means, be careful how you ask your questions.  Be specific, and start paying attention.   The more you do this, the more you’ll see just how much information you get from your soul.  I’ve recently come to realize that I’m getting a lot more information than I ever knew, and it’s opened my eyes so I can see even more.  All it takes is asking questions and desiring answers.  They will come.